Thursday, 25 June 2009
Wednesday, 24 June 2009
Just a couple of shots capturing the room in two of its guest room identities - don't think I ever took a picture of it when it was briefly my office. Below are pictures of the nursery taking shape, including one with its Africa Christmas tree in December 2008! Previous posts show work done on the flooring and trim. And yes, we are still living in the midst of flooring & trim work on the upper level (as we have been since the end of January). I am ready to get the place set back up again, let me tell you.
Hmm, this last picture reminds me to start planning and working on the coordinating cross-stitch - sounds like a pleasant thing to do while camping and sitting on the deck through the summer. Much cooler than knitting an afgan in the hot months...
Now that the trim is nearly done, I am looking forward to seeing the room all finished up. We may not know today where this adoption is headed, but we've come this far.
Tuesday, 23 June 2009
Friday, 19 June 2009
Thursday, 18 June 2009
Having experienced uncertainty in the adoption process for a year now, this is all so familiar we hardly even know how to feel. The unknown is what we know, and perhaps because of that we have maintained a little emotional distance from the process, watching and waiting. It doesn't always feel real for us, although I am acutely aware of the significance of all this for the other couples involved, and catch glimpses of its meaning for us as well. We have been ok with the arms length uncertainty to an extent, however we would both welcome some stability at this point. We have been so convinced of this pathway for us that we have remained optimistic, and confident that Ghana will work out. We still believe it can.
If it doesn't...well, I'm wanting to fight my natural inclination to assume things WON'T move forward, so I am using this as an opportunity to focus on restoration of the program - persistence and faith.
We will manage a change in plans IF it comes to us, but won't count on that yet at all - I don't want to entertain that possibility until we know with certainty what unfolds. We trust that all options are being explored, and that those involved are interested in working collaboratively and for the greater good (and if not, that they will reach that point before it is too late). And it is not yet too late...
Some worthwhile reflections thanks to Google:
This command — “be still” — forces us to think on two things: that we are finite, and that God is infinite. That being the case, we need to drop our hands, go limp, relax, and “chill out.” Christian people ought to “come, behold the works of Jehovah,” (v. 8) that we may enjoy a calm confidence in him who gave us his Son.
“Shall he not also with him freely give us all things?” Paul reasoned (Romans 8:32). Psalm 46:10 encourages us to reflect on what God can do in the face of what we are unable to do.
Spiritual serenity, the psalmist admits, ought to be cultivated in spite of the shaking mountains and agitated waters (vv. 2-3; i.e., figures for the difficulties we face in life). This spiritual calm, that God commands, does not come from a lack of troubles; it derives from a steady, deep reflection on the ways God has intervened in history on behalf of his people (cf. Romans 15:4).
So as your world crumbles around you, the call from Scripture is: don’t flinch in faith in God. Stand still — not because of a self-made confidence, not because you are the most composed person in the face of disaster, not because “you’ve seen it all.” Be still because of what you know about God.
It is “God’s past” that provides calm for “our future.” Know that he is God! Know it, not merely intellectually, but practically, spiritually, and emotionally. He is your God. He is the ruler of kingdoms of this earth and the all-powerful Creator of the Universe.
Jason Jackson, February 2006
And...from Steven Curtis Chapman:Be still and know that he is God
Be still and know he is our Father
Come rest your head upon his breast
Listen to the rhythm of his unfailing heart of love
Beating for His little ones
Calling each of us to come
Be still, Be still
For faith, to actively believe in the possibility of change, and also to trust, letting go of control.
For persistence, in facing barriers and maintaining focus.
For generosity, in being open to possibilities and collaborating in a spirit of resolution.
Luke 18:1-8 Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. He said: "In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared about men. And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, 'Grant me justice against my adversary.' For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, 'Even though I don't fear God or care about men, yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won't eventually wear me out with her coming!' And the Lord said, "Listen to what the unjust judge says. And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?"
Wednesday, 17 June 2009
Matthew 17:20 - "I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, `Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."
Matthew 21:18-21 - Jesus also said, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, `Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done.
Mark 11: 22-23 - "Have faith in God," Jesus answered. "I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, `Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him.
Tuesday, 16 June 2009
Oh, and now I remember the weird part of the dream - we had to travel to Ghana for some adoption-related reason (not sure what) and were matched with our twins while there, totally unexpectedly, and were able to travel home with them right away. As a result, I had no opportunity to give notice of my parental leave, which I felt badly about. My employer, as I recall, was understanding, but I then learned leave was only expected to last 5.5 months, and I would be returning to work just before Christmas (great timing). I believe I woke up before re-approaching my employer to break the news that I planned to take the whole 9 months of leave permitted in Ontario! Ok, so the dream was odd, but overall still good :)
Wednesday, 10 June 2009
1999-June 8, 2009
Taking a moment to celebrate my sister's dog, Bruckner (seen here hanging out with my Scat, in a backyard garden at my place), a happy guy who shared 8 years as part of the family. He was adopted by my sister in Ohio, then moved in with us for 3 years along with my sister, where he developed a lovely friendship with our greyhound, Gatsby, put up with our cats (sometimes salivating after them, especially Scat), and endured Phineas, our basset. Most recently he enjoyed meeting Gladwyn (who must have looked enough like a greyhound for his taste) and sharing his home with our new niece. He hung in there for a little while with lymphoma, enough time for some more good walks, visits, and memories.
Monday, 8 June 2009
Wednesday, 3 June 2009
If it does not, then we will need clarity in knowing what to do next. And we will focus on that if the time comes. I would like to say this is all completely unexpected, but I'm so inclined toward a slightly pessimistic view that I can't say I'm altogether shocked. Although I'm quite open to being pleasantly surprised & proven wrong!